Hubcap

just a warning, I am about to unleash 18 hours of pent up anguish. I've changed names, as you will soon see.
So, last night I got the opportunity to go to a dance, and even though I knew the guy--Let's call him..(stares around the room and picks out an object)..paintbrush--wasn't going to be there, I still went and tried to not let that little disappointing cloud cover my evening. SO I went with my friend, Chap stick, and it was actually pretty fun. I wasn't real energetic, but then again I'm never that hyper at dances anyway. At least until I did a swing dance with this one guy who is like, totally AMAZING at it, then after that I was pretty pumped. Oh, and he was really sweet and when he dipped me a few times, and I would kinda freak out, because I'm always afraid they won't be strong enough to hold me, he would say "don't worry, I'll catch you." or "It's okay, I'm here." And he was so sweet and cute!

Sorry. I'm gushing too much.

Now, onto the tall, black-brown hair, and blue-eyed guy, Hubcap.--I seem to always go for the tall, black-brown haired, and blue-eyed guys. unless they are in their twenties, then it's like, almost opposite..-- I have been wanting to dance with Hubcap at every dance since the one in December, when I first danced with him. He's amazing, cute--more like HOT--, and very nice. (He is a great dancer, and from what I've seen, probably as good as the swing dance guy. and outgoing, and dances with every type of girl, including the ones that aren't asked a lot. How sweet is THAT?) and so--this has happened in previous dances, too--we kept glancing at each other, and would usually be across the room from each other, but I know the glance. The, I-Want-To-Dance-With-You Glance, know what I'm talking about?
Anyway sometimes whenever a slow song would start we'd always look at each other, but then look away quickly.. and yeah, in short, we were playing a game. Who would ask who. So finally, after all evening of wanting to dance with him, I finally got up the courage to walk across the middle of the dance floor, it was a clear shot, all I saw was him, and his back half turned away, talking to his friends. It was in slow motion. the music pumping, mindless chatter was off in the background. I was finally there, I reached out my arm and pointed my finger, getting ready to tap him,
TAP. TAP. TAP.
But wait. that wasn't MY finger that was tapping, that was some other guy tapping MY shoulder.
WHAT?? Noooo!!
I wanted to say no, I wanted to say no so much. but I didn't. I plastered a smile on my face and said "sure"
Then as we were what I would call swaying in a circle, I saw Hubcap glance at me and my partner, then went off to find someone to dance with.
:(
As I was screaming in my head at how far I had come only to get asked by someone who was younger than me and whom I had already danced with,--I kept smiling and laughing at what he said, no matter how unfunny.-- and then I noticed Hubcap beside me, dancing with some girl. Then, as if in a movie, I swear, both our partners were sort of back to back, and I glanced over my partners shoulder--he was kinda on the short side..--and saw that Hubcap was also looking, and we stared into each others eyes for that split-second that seems like an eternity. You know that moment? Ahhh... bliss.
But then we both looked away and back at our partners and chuckled at whatever they just said. Yeah, like I'd remember.
It was like when you're running on a building and you leap off, soaring through the air towards the next roof top... you're so close, then right as you think you make it, you go SPLAT into the wall, and then fall limply to the ground, where you crash and burn.
Did I mention he's 17? So was swing-dance guy. Okay, that had no reason to be said, but I think you should know the facts, even if it has no relevance whatsoever.
Other than that GAHHHH moment, the dance rocked.